The door is open, the lid is off
My soul is laid bare to the rush of memories
The last birthday, the last embrace
The sweetest and final kisses you laid upon my face
Our last hours spent, the passage of time
Far too quickly it all went
The last days played out as destined by fate
The onslaught of a reckoning would not abate
The reaper by my side, awaiting the inevitable
Me recounting your precious memories for you
All the while turning the table
Mother becomes the child, the child the mother
Big shoes to fill, however uncomfortable
The void is coming, the time is drawing near
A life without my mother is my biggest fear
Everything in it's own good time they say
It was hell watching you slowly slip away
Time slowed down, yet the day was over so fast
And before I knew it, before my eyes and holding my hand, you passed
You carried me inside of you, and were there when I was born
You walked beside me, raised me right
Taught me to always love the lord
To do unto others and live your life as an example
Most of all, in example and in teaching
You taught me that in love, to always practice what your preaching.
You were there when I came into this world
And so I knew it just wouldn't be right
If I wasn't there holding your hand when God extinguished your light
Immediately I assumed my new mantle with grace
Filling mother's shoes would take a lot of time and grace
I don't know if I ever can be as great as the woman who created me, if I can ever take her place
All I can do is try, to fill the role you spent my entire life training me for
How to live a full and happy life when you are there no more
Allegory suits me this day
However this emptiness, this endless aching void
Is something I cannot write away
However I try to spin it, its been a hard week,
Seems as if my eyes are set to a constant leak
Marked days are the worst, and today happens to be one
Your last birthday on earth, five years ago, you turned sixty one
Today you would have been sixty six, and flowers I will take to your grave and fix
No amount of tears shed nor prayers in vain, will ever bring you my way again
Putting the puzzle pieces together again, it all seems wrong
The one piece I need to glue it all together is gone
It all seems wrong and will forever
This broken life I walk without you mother
Love you forever, miss you always!
